21-12-2009

好没心情工作啊.. 今天好象也没什么的, 也许是每天都是这样吧, 好无聊..

今天大伙还在为星期五的事件在忙,可是忙也忙不出什么,又不是老板,不能做决定,所以就不理啦,反正他也亏了几个月的一百五十millions...[argh... 我在做什么??? 不想堕落下去,但却提不起劲]

今天手脚很快,一下就把许多报告搞定.. [因为归心似箭]

再这样下去,我就做不下去啦.. 是不是应该转工.此地没有欣赏我的人,一定还有可容我之处吧.. [惨了,就是越做就越不懂自己要什么,连当初的梦想也没了.. 可悲!]

相信对我有所期待的,也对我失望了吧,真是无言相对.. [对不起了,我真的让你失望了吧,虽然你不告诉我,我也知道]

新的一年应该会有新希望吧.. 快点过吧, 好可悲的二十三岁.. 好老了, 岁月果然不留人.. [想回到从前]

20-12-2009

Made a stupid decision again to follow them out. stressed, boring and tired i can say.. anyway, we should always try something different from what we used to do right? hmm.. satisfied sunday.

Can't wait to see my family around. x'mas will be my lovely cousin's wedding. the whole family will b coming to kl. some relatives are here already. after the wedding, i'll b having a week off. that's the best part of my working life.

Though lot of plans (US, Singapore, Taiwan) just bubbled , but i'm sure as long as i'm not going thru these days in the office and as long as i'm not alone (with my family) then i'll b vr satisfied already. =)

19-12-2009

So boring. I don't even remember what I did this whole day. hmm.. watching drama home alone. but kinda enjoy it when i just rest for 4 hours the day before it..

Oh ya, I went movie with cousin. Argh.. for the 1st time, i realized that no matter how nice is the movie, the person you go with must be the right one, else you won't really enjoy the movie. why i say so? can you stand when the person next to you, just keep eye'ng on ppl's popcorn and the person on the other side of you just keep snooring? sucks.. spoilt the mood.. =_="'

Hope to see ya soon.. you're the best partner.. (",)

18-12-2009

Today got a call from Usafis, thought i'm that lucky to win the green card lottery. but end up she leads me to give her my credit card number. :S

It's rejected in the end, but in the bottom of heart, i actually wish that it's true. i really wish my america dream comes true. . disappointed.. Can I try? :( *don't be silly*, this is what i have from a friend.

forget about that, without the green card, i'll be there very soon too.. vr soon..

Today's AM gathering was a good one. Hope for more coming up and really miss those days.. miss my dearly housemates.. miss "e-zhi-ya" studymates.. yay, public holiday.. woo hoo.. hoping a blast 1..

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Fast forward

Time passes vr vr fast...

Every month, that would be something, something that push me to "fast forward" my life.
Nobody loves to "fast forward". I have to. I can't wait to lean on the shoulder. The pillar of support. Not too sure is it too fast, alot happiness yet alot of tears. Injuries everywhere.

June-"Where're you? Why you're not here yet?"
July-"Mind your words"
August-"Never say freak"
September-"Don't be like John"
October-"Don't let ppl think klsd is stupid"
November-"The more they do, the more mistakes they make"
December, I'm looking for you. I tried my best.. but I'm down..

@ work...

Today suppose is vr busy o..coz i'm still new n i desperately want to go home earlier today. I'm so so so tired n stressed. My pro colleague is leaving us soon. Now, the boss start monitoring us. last time he seldom ask or order us to do anything. But recently, he put me in a new report. stressed. who likes to work with him? somemore out of 3 of us, i'm d oni person handling this, n it's so bored n useless. but who dare to sound??

I really don understand why ppl here don really talk until lunch n lunch time is d oni hour i enjoy d most coz i meet a few very easy going n happy friends. but d rest of time, i'll be jz facing d computer n speed n speed to my reports done in time. if not, everybody wil "ping" u n ask "where is d report? i need it to do my part!!!" oh ya, fyi, "ping" rite? means msg or text. i dono y they use "ping". n we hav 1 chat room rite msn, which is called sametime n the stuffs of csc from all over d world communication with each other by using sametime to ping each other.

the thing i most afraid of is when there're replies for my reports. it's vr scary de. it might be saying, "Something missing in your data", "Can you double check the fugure for ...."... yuks! this feeling is suck! i keep doing mistakes i dono y. haih.. the reports will need to b sent out by 11am bt now d server gone crazy.. i oso almost crazy d.. so stressed until i keep waking up at nite, afraid tat i cant wake up in d morning. sigh.. somemore cant talk.. it's so killing.. wish me luck..