没有他的第一天

他现在应该还在飞机上吧。。宝贝好厉害，他忍得到，也因为这样，大家是笑者看他离开，我以为我能做得到不哭，结果只有我哭。。我以为我很坚强，我以为我可以重新来过，那是因为他还在我身边，有他在，我什么也能，没有他，我什么也不是。。

chinese is easy to say, but freaking hard to type, short paragraph only also take me some time figure out the pin yin already.type until i also don't know how i feel already. jieh said i should treat this as a test but not separation, but how long will this test goes and why i always have to go through this. i thought i can handle it well, in fact, i really really miss him. whole night didn't sleep waiting for his message. where are u now? are u alright? reach seoul already? why no message me? it's already 11.53 in the morning..heading to atlanta? is the flight to seoul is so bad like chong said?

in this very first day, i have to pick up my mood for tomorrow's test and presentation. after this, take a bath, take a breath then i should start to study already. he's doing very hard and i must do the same as well to make our "test" score with flying colors, our "test" must worth the value and how much sacrification we put. i must remember what we promise each other! i shall think that we're special, we have to go thru special training to strengthen our relationship. this test is our future. I BELIEVE I CAN FLY,I BELIEVE I CAN TOUCH THE SKY,EVERY NIGHT AND EVERY CLOUDY DAY...