怪！

最近有点忙，忙到不懂为什么忙？奇怪！

原以为跟家人一起住会开心一点，也不是不开心，只是希望大家每天都是开开心心就更好！

有始有种不想回家的感觉，矛盾！

新生活

i'm having some great time recently. =) i started to work already although not much money but i feel very happy working there as everybody is treating me very nice especially i'm the only girl there. but sometimes of course i need to do some guys' works as well. it's not too hard for me as i'm kind of mommy's boy, guys can do, i can do better. now the life is better and more meaningful as i don't have time to simply think already. so i actually don't think of him that much already. don't know it's a good thing or bad. just as long as we keep up each other i think it's alright. after 5 days working in the company, i actually went to the annual dinner. and the best part is i got the lucky draw of a LG washing machine. haha. i'm now staying with my uncle already, so i'll just give it to my uncle i guess. staying with uncle is easy as i don't have to think of the food, the transport and everything but when i see my housemate and roommate, i miss them and feel like go back to the same house with them. haha. kind of conflicting feeling. the people in work are all very nice. i scared i'll fall for a guy but i don't want to be a Muslim. haha. he's tall, nice and handsome. but it's hard to communicate with him. i learnt alot of things in my work. i got discounted food at the work place cafe, i got discount for buying the company's stuff and many other benefits. though i need to ride motorbike to work, and it's the very first time riding motorbike in kl but i feel very free and enjoy especially when i see people are stucked in the jam while i can easily get thru them. it's not fun when it's raining but that won't stop me from riding bike, i like the freedom feeling. i don't think others could understand why i feel so but it's real fun. but after staying in uncle's house, he fetches me to work everyday, once in awhile i got VIOS to drive to work too. but i always mengantuk while driving, i feel very bored and quiet driving alone though i switch on the radio as loud as possible but i still feel very sleepy in the car. what's wrong to me? there's once when i drove home from work, all the way i actually didn't switched on the head light and i didn't realize it until i almost got home. working life is so fresh to me but there's something i really left behind that really scared me out. i don't have the mood to finish up my FYP. if i couldn't finish it up before the semester starts then i'll die hard! gambateh to me! tomorow will be better!

错字连篇

看一看回自己写的东西才发现有很多错字，还不怎么会用华语字写。。呵呵！可是算有进步了，还蛮快的！因为我发现了space的伟大，只要我按space，他会自动找字给我，可是他也会乱乱帮我换字。。昨天，我想说的是，我想去当短暂行的尼姑，而不是又要去当。。呵呵！可是需要和很大的勇气，因为我必须去剃光头！那以后我跟他就是同发型了，我不大能接受！还有一张考试呢，加油，加油！不要在最后一刻放弃，加油！！！

安息吧！

前几天伟槟的公公离开他们了，今天舅母的妈妈也走。。人生无常，一定要珍惜身边所爱的人。。如果人能长命百岁哪有多好！那如果一个人在生的时候并不适合开心，收尽苦头，我们应该希望它能长命百岁，还是让他回到极乐世界去，好让他逃脱生命中的痛苦呢？我好害怕我身边的人会有事，我只想大家能够开开心心，健健康康的过日子。我并不要求太多。曾几何时，我又去当短暂性的尼姑。我觉得我又太多东西放不下了，也许是心中又贪吧！我对生活又要求，可是我不喜欢那种有要求，却又达不到过后的那种低落。。当我得到了一样我很想要的，我又会觉得不够，这个不够好那个也不够。。结果，自己在那丢伤心。。很想改变一下自己对所有东西的看法，觉得自己还不够好，脾气不好，待人处事也不好，最厉害就是忍。。人家说什么事也要忍，是吗？那如果事情一已经超越了自己所能及得极限，还要忍吗？其实，我是否应该去宽容而不是去忍啊？忍，并代表我很宽容，也只可说是，忍得！

前几天我都到我舅舅家住，刚好我的阿姨也在哪里。她真是让我想揍她，小心眼，自私，偏心，爱说长道短，每天就是没完没了的，真的有够难顶的！我也因为她忍到很辛苦，甚至晚上发梦也梦到和她吵架。。吵到我也睡迟了，差点就迟到去考试！因为她是长辈我不能没礼貌，可是。。可是我也有错，为什么我也要那样斤斤计较？放下，放下！我一定要知足常乐！我已经很幸福了，有那么多对我好的家人，朋友；虽然大家都离我远远的，可是我是感受到大家的爱。。

不晓得为什么今天那么多东西讲。。我好像假期了。。其实，还有一张考试呢？心在哪里？？？

远距离..

我很讨厌距离..有些距离是远的又也是近的;代购的距离,不满的距离;总而言之距离是不健康的!喜欢一个人又不好意思让他知道,等到有勇气了又太迟了;讨厌一个人是最辛苦的,讨厌他又不能让他知道,可是看到他就是不爽,奇怪!有些人有了喜欢他的人,可是却不懂得珍惜;没有了才哭哭啼啼,有用吗?我在讲你啊!听到了没有!!哭,只有让大家拿难受,只有自己拿来伤心,只有把自己的身体搞坏,那样好吗?从今天起,让大家都过着为了大家而活得精彩,而不是活得死去活来的..办得到吗?

我觉得又有些人真的好奇怪!明明跟自己的另一半谈这远距离的恋爱,相差6小时已经很难受了,最后抵挡不住距离的折磨,总就分手;可是他却又有勇气去接受比6小时更远的恋情,这叫什么?ridiculous!我看了他和她的部落格,他们不害羞吗?当他和她在开开心心的时候,他又想过以前的她可能过的不什么好吗?他又想过她的感受吗?可能我没有资格说着种话,曾几何时有人就这么地对我说的.他好自私!没错也许他有他选择自己幸福的权利,可是我希望在他觉得自己很幸福的时候,别把幸福当武器地在伤害她..女生外表可能很坚强,可是在你说你幸福的每件小事时,也许她的玻璃心已经碎了..

不懂为什么我今天很想讲他,也许我也在为我的他不好受吧!我们从3小时的距离,拉近到零距离,在拉元到我已经过完了我的今天,而他才开始他的今天..上一则故事我在报章上独到的,然后就一直未受伤的她打抱不平!如有雷同,纯属巧合..

中秋节

住在吉隆坡这种大城市，我不觉得中秋节有什么意义。在这，佳节也只有买卖的意义而已！生意人乘佳节把东西有几贵就炒几贵；消费者也乘佳节shopping啊！很现实的！有谁会好象铭挥所说的，中秋节要记得常娥为什么要奔月？武松为什么要砍树？who cares?好想念以前大家在太平湖一起污染太平湖的日子！时光一去永不回，很难有机会再一起聚在那儿了吧！

在中秋节前夕，我到了一个小地方庆祝中秋节，那地方应该是吉隆坡难见的一个地方吧！就在一个小到不行的草地，那里搭了篷，有个小歌台，有人唱歌；另一边又有个篷挂着很多灯笼，灯笼下有的猜灯谜，当然旁边也放了很多小礼物；再另外一边就有歌长桌用来放月饼的。。除此，还有派灯笼呢，这时刻可是小孩子最开心的。。我说了这样多的重点是我没有像想到在这个地方可以一分钱都不必花，而且又有舞狮，小丑，烟花等。。让我觉得这城市还有一些人情味，而不是做什么都讲钱，而且它甚至比花钱买东西来的有意义，来的开心！而且现场的画面是很感人的！
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我曾经想过如果他有在的话我会有机会去机会去到那个地方吗?可是不管会是怎样我都希望有他在我身边.其实,不是有钱就会开心的;没有钱也有没有钱的开心,没什么以前会那么执著,会那么不开心呢?人很矛盾..

没有他的第一天

他现在应该还在飞机上吧。。宝贝好厉害，他忍得到，也因为这样，大家是笑者看他离开，我以为我能做得到不哭，结果只有我哭。。我以为我很坚强，我以为我可以重新来过，那是因为他还在我身边，有他在，我什么也能，没有他，我什么也不是。。

chinese is easy to say, but freaking hard to type, short paragraph only also take me some time figure out the pin yin already.type until i also don't know how i feel already. jieh said i should treat this as a test but not separation, but how long will this test goes and why i always have to go through this. i thought i can handle it well, in fact, i really really miss him. whole night didn't sleep waiting for his message. where are u now? are u alright? reach seoul already? why no message me? it's already 11.53 in the morning..heading to atlanta? is the flight to seoul is so bad like chong said?

in this very first day, i have to pick up my mood for tomorrow's test and presentation. after this, take a bath, take a breath then i should start to study already. he's doing very hard and i must do the same as well to make our "test" score with flying colors, our "test" must worth the value and how much sacrification we put. i must remember what we promise each other! i shall think that we're special, we have to go thru special training to strengthen our relationship. this test is our future. I BELIEVE I CAN FLY,I BELIEVE I CAN TOUCH THE SKY,EVERY NIGHT AND EVERY CLOUDY DAY...

Back to School

2day is d second day in school.. so boring!waiting4class now bt dono wat2do so check friendster bt oso check til vr sian d.. so hav alook on my blog.. i havent even completed my 3rd day journey in Bangkok.. so.. jz 4get bout it.

i saw 3 lecturers d.. 1 is d stupid old tutor tat i comment badly bout him in student survey, always late n say things no point!he teaches us non-parametric statistics, abit scared later he remember me kill me in his subject.. hopefully d comment thingy is confidential! d 1st day he ad recommend us a vr GOOD book, which means he wants us to STUDY ON YOUR OWN!!

d 2nd lecturers even older.. all UTAR young n smart lecturers left d school d.. they don't wan to go Kampar campus next time so all cabut quick quick! back2d oldest lecturer, he's not bad bt vr nagging, simple things oso say til no days no nights like tat, so vr soon after he start talking d whole class will start Zzz already! Vr keng punya Professor! he's d 1st professor i met in UTAR. i've been taught by a few Dr. oni so far! Prof. means 60++ years old.. old man teaching elementary real analysis-alot of proving!Zzz...

d 3rd 1, teaches us linear regression analysis.. sth to do wif statistics.. this semester i took 2 major statistic subjects n 2 maths subjects + a programming subject. dono how2go thru this semester..luckily d last semester gone thru already somemore gain an A in sociology!WooHoo..!!

now i realize my strong subject is not in maths subjects or programming subjects bt is in arts subjects! shit! dono how to survive til final year..sigh!god bless me k!

hm..hav2stop here d..i feel like im interrupting others in d library by typing too late bt cheapo comp wif cheapo keyboard i ad tried my best to type bt stil so loud..tat's all for 2day!

happy everyday!!(",)